Inspire Daily- ed.7


Emerson often reminds me of things all too important to forget, but this one really hits home.

For the ambitious type… planning for dreams ahead to become possible and constantly learning from our past mistakes in order to grow can entirely consume our lives. If I know one thing about myself it’s that I routinely forget to LIVE IN THE MOMENT.

My talents and my jobs become my sense of identity- which can become dangerous all too quickly. When writers block hits, it’s personal! Suddenly, not only will I not be able to write for a week… anxiety rears its ugly head and my entire future is doomed, as well as my self worth.

I should be focusing on the bigger picture… remembering…

I am more than my dreams and ambitions. More than my accomplishments, my talents and my “successes” or lack there of at times.

We are enough. As we are. Nothing need be added.

Always yours,


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For us life planners, this can be a hard one to follow (myself included).

Looking back, my life has not gone according to ANY of my plans… but somehow I’ve ended up in places better than I could have ever dreamed imaginable.

Let go of the pressure of perfection.

Do what you love, relax and open your eyes to life’s surprises. If you’re so caught up planning out your future, you won’t have a chance to appreciate what’s right before your eyes.

Yours always,


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Art as Prostitution

“So why are you in the business of commercial art and not fine art?”

My program coordinator posed this question to us this morning in my Advanced Photoshop class.

Money money money… Yes! That is why!” he exclaimed with a smile on his face.

  • You don’t tell the client it took two hours, you tell them it took four!
  • Don’t share your secrets with others around you, hide them and get ahead!
  • Learn shortcuts, detach from your art
  • And most importantly, do what the client wants!

“We are in this business because we like to prostitute our trade” he joked.

Were willing to do just about anything for a price.


I listened to the lecture and felt the curds of vomit begin to form in my stomach. It’s just not right… simply not right at all. Which of us creative people desire to sell out? To think only of what somebody else wants from us and kill all of the scraps left of our creativity?

I’m pretty sure when we were children, not a single one of us would refuse to punch our future selves if we heard ourselves talking like that. And yet… here I was surrounded by classmates who were eagerly shaking their head in agreement, laughing jovially, and awaiting his nuggets of wisdom.



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I’ve known I was in the wrong program for about a year now… but it still saddens me to see so many people brainwashed and to think that at one point he had me too.

Why is it, I wonder, that today’s society in America puts so little emphasis or appreciation into the arts?

By no means am I saying that the professions we hold in such high esteem are anything less important then what they’re made to be. Or that all commercial artists think this way. Hell yes we need doctors! We couldn’t do so much of what we do without engineers, mathematicians, teachers, scientists and everything in-between! Yet… it seems to be a common denominator throughout the human race as a whole that these jobs keep us physically living, able to function, evolve longer lifespans to survive. 

But we live for the arts.

What would we do without our music on our way to work? Without the movies we go to see with our families and friends? Our T.V. shows? Our books?

Our art sets our mood and allows us to escape the pressures of this world if even momentarily. 

Without it… would we really enjoy life? It’s said to be unessential… cut from school programs while logic and reasoning is shoved down the throats of our future generation. All for what? So we can keep progressing… get a stable job… make a good sum of money…but be numb to the life around us past the age of 12?

I think it’s time for a reset. I think it’s time to cultivate our individuality and creativity. To think outside the box and stop running towards desk jobs and benefits with paid vacations.

It’s time to start asking ourselves the big questions… Who are you? And who do you want?

I’m done listening to other peoples’ fears. Done with group mentalities and doubt and security. There’s no guarantee that any of my stories will become published… no promises that my words will be liked… nothing. I have a dream and a purpose and I’m going to start riding it unaltered towards the light I see until I reach it or die trying. Even if I never reach my goals… at least I can say I lived life the way I wanted, and not the way some client told me to.

Life’s to short to spend 40 hours a week hating it… Live a life you won’t regret.



Inspiration for characters FROM characters- new blog segment

I do not create my characters… they create me.

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Starting this week I will beginning a new segment to talking2myselves. Seeing as there are over 300 developed “characters” in this noggin… and I say “characters” very hesitantly to describe my babies whom I love dearly and live and breathe to me… as much as my fellow readers…

well anywho! What I mean to say is…

my characters will be posting on my site as admins themselves. If they wish to share a part of their life they’re going through they may post it!

I hope that getting to share my babies from their point of view instead of me speaking for them, I can share a little bit of my daily “process” (so to speak) with you.

I cannot stress enough that my learned ability to listen within for their voices… connecting with them and formulating meaningful and lasting relationships… letting them live and breathe not only as a part of me but separately as well, is THE key reason my world and characters have authenticity.

So please… if you’re having a hard time connecting with your inner family, talk to mine– or even roll play as one of your own characters.

What would Rebecca say?… and answer those questions until Rebecca starts sassily answering them for you.

From my family to yours,




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A quote from my favorite series, Fruits Basket by Natsuki Takaya… Momichi nailed this one.

…To not forget a single memory can be painful. We’ve all suffered through hard times in our lives– times we would rather forget. But if we are to remain true to ourselves in this life, we must incorporate every  memory… because it is especially those painful memories that shape us into the beautiful human beings we are.

Remember and embrace my loves,



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Self doubt is a formidable foe. Let’s do our best to fight it from within by becoming conscious of our own inner state daily 🙂

By replacing even a sliver of that doubt with trust… anything is possible my friends.

So stop fooling yourself. You know what you have to do… now go do it!


Always yours,


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Inspire Daily– ed.2



If you’ve ever tackled a big piece of work… this is a constant issue, am I right!?

Whether it’s a whole freaking novel being birthed from your brain, or a 40×60 painting etc… finding the inspiration to keep going strong for the hours or weeks or months or years it takes to push that baby out can be one of the toughest roadblocks.

I’ve spent years in the past waiting for the moment it feels right to write Aubrey’s story… begin that novel… make that art piece etc. And if there’s one thing I’ve learned through those experiences, its that there will never BE a right time. 

The best times of my life have happened when I am dedicated enough show up in my own life daily and make something happen, whether I feel like it or not. So let us continue to have the courage to look inwards, acknowledge our dreams, and make daily baby steps through self made inspiration… walking together all the way 🙂 Let us support each other.

Yours always,



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